Today Is Yesterday

In my conversation with my friend this morning, I talked about that time when I was 19 and basically living care-free.

My friends and I would hangout every night until morning. We were considered the wasted youth in reference to not having a job or being out of school. Although an ugly label, it did no effect to us, whatsoever. We were happy living our lives. With no plans for the night, we were just the absorber of the moment. Accepting and enjoying whatever comes in the present. We sat and talked about anything in general. Somebody would play the guitar and another would start singing. I would go on my friend's bike and cruise around the neighborhood. We would pull a prank on a few of us, creating ghost stories in my house, creating eerie sounds and spooky reflections or shadows of ourselves in the dark to scare a few who I believe up to this day still believes in it. And when the night ends, everybody would go home except for my friend Kurt, who is my closest friend among the group and used to live in our house. Kurt and I would go down the street to eat breakfast and we would just see how everybody is just about to start their day while ours just ended. We're so tired by the time we get home and just head straight to sleep.

I know many of you that can read this are probably saying, well it sounds like a tedious life. And to be honest, I've lived this kind of life for a while that it came to the point where I said the same thing to myself. I got tired of just not going anywhere. And everything turned into a cycle. So I moved to start anew. To get my life together and find a meaning to it. And as I look back now, I realize, I am where I am because of where I was. And sometimes I find myself wishing I could just go back in time and just be a kid again. Where I could not care about what tomorrow will bring and just savor the moment.

Find the kid in yourself and let it out. You can have dreams, desires, and plans but don't make it at the expense of enjoying what is now around and within you.

I will end this with a simple yet powerful quote from John Lennon:

"Life is what happens when we're busy making other plans."